About Harry Potter, I think it's just like, another big thing about it that I can't let go of and I'm also not going to let someone's bigotry take away the storyline for me is that that is how -- so Harry Potter is special also because that is like, the foundation that my relationship was based off of. I mean, I guess I don't want to say like that far, but my boyfriend and I started hanging out more closely as closer friends watching the Harry Potter series -- not the series, sorry. I cannot sentence words together. I can't even form thoughts right now, but I will try my best. So yeah. Yeah, like we started watching movies together and then he surprised me with a wand -- Draco's wand, from the local woods. He literally took the wood from a hawthorne, which many of those grow in -- on campus and then he carved it into a wand and stained it, colored it, everything. And made a homemade box and put velvet inside and all the way down to putting his name on the box as if it was like Olivander's and it was just like, so over the top. And he made all of that for me and then also he had like this lightbulb that he replaced one of the light bulbs in -- it was [building] Hall that we were in and that one was like, sound automated. So, when he told me to swoosh my, my wand, like the light turned on and started playing Hogwarts music. And that was crazy because I had never heard of like a Bluetooth light speaker thing. So, um, I was shocked and amazed and it felt truly magical. So, yeah, I definitely can't leave Harry Potter, I guess. And that's why I've opted to separate it from the author.

People tend to be uncomfortable when they realize that you understand something about themselves that they either don't realize, or that's an uncomfortable thing for them to come to terms with, or something that might change their perspective on the way that they're acting. People get uncomfortable with that, so I tend to be very careful with bringing those things up. And so for the first time in this relationship with this person, instead of being afraid that he won't love me, that didn’t matter anymore. And I went ahead and said what I said, and then it opened up other, other times since then -– since that first dice roll, where I was more comfortable with rolling that same dice again and — that same die, I guess, singular. I guess it depends on how many dice you’re rolling like a D&D game or something. But it’s turned out to be for the better because it allowed me to be on more equal footing with him as a friend and change the relationship dynamic because it used to be a dynamic of limerence and now it's more equal footing and it's empowered me to be more honest with him and myself and better analyze my previous relationship to him and it's much healthier than it ever was and it's allowed me to save my feelings and my wondering how is he going to react and all that kind of stuff that I used to be so worried about, I now don't feel so broken up over. So it was a little bit freaky the first time, but it turned out for the best.

This past Tuesday, I was going to help a director that I'm really close with, with casting for this year’s production of Christmas Carol. So, I have been in Christmas Carol for five years in a row as an actor playing Ghost of Christmas Past, Pageant Girl, Boy on The Street with Newspaper, and Belle, who is, like, Scrooge's girlfriend that breaks up with him. But I've been playing these roles. And I can't be in the show this year because I'm off at college, but the director’s like, “Yeah, you can come in and help cast the show. You can virtually assistant direct. It'll be fun!” So, I come in for the auditions and the director is, like, late. He's not there, and there are already people coming in, so I'm kind of like telling them where to go. And I'm not, like, an official member of the production team for this just because I can't physically be at a single one of the rehearsals. I was just helping with the casting decisions and a little bit of virtual consulting here and there. So I'm, like, introducing myself and telling people, “Just wait for the director.” So when the director gets here, he's like, “By the way, the vocal director dropped out, so I'm gonna need you to run all of the auditions for the choir. And, also, we don't have a piano.” So, I do have a little bit of experience vocal directing for this Christmas Carol show because it seems like every single year we have an issue with the vocal director not being able to be at a performance or not being able to be at the parade, and I just get stuck doing it.  So, I had to redownload the phone piano app on my phone so I could run these vocal auditions, but it was a little bit hard because people were, like, coming in before their time and after their time, so I had to keep redoing parts of the audition. And most of the people auditioning for the choir–there’s kind of three categories of people auditioning for the choir: people who are under the age of ten, people who are over the age of sixty–and some of them have lovely voices–but people who are auditioning for the cast that think their chances would be better if they also audition for the choir.…

It's Halloween on s- -- on Friday. My son is trick-or-treating with his friend. And then -- actually three of his friends. And this one friend is very, very organized, and he's a big planner, and he is -- he needs -- I don't know if he's a control freak or what his deal is. He doesn’t strike me as a control freak. He's just a very, like, he puts a lot of thought into every minute of his life. He's a great kid, and I really like him a lot, and I'm glad that he's friends with my son because my son is, like, the opposite. He is very go-with-the-flow, and doesn't want to make any decisions and wants people to just lead him around and tell him what to do. And so then he made friends with this guy who has all these ideas and makes them all happen and wants people to be on board with his ideas and makes all these plans and then just makes my son, like, be involved in all of his plans. And so, it's great. They're great together.  So, they -- they made a map. Well, this guy did -- this kid. Okay, so they're like thirteen years old. So he made a map of the best route for trick-or-treating. And they had a Google Meet where all four of them got together on the video chat and were like, “Okay guys, we need to pull up a map of -- of the neighborhood and see which way is the best, most efficient way to trick-or-treat.” And so they talked for, like, an hour and, like, “Well, if we turn down this street, there's only so many houses. If we turn down this street, there's only houses on one side. So, we really have to plan out which way we go.” And so then they -- so then, the next day, they emailed out, “Okay, here's the official map.” And they mapped out the entire route that they're going to be going on their trick-or-treat–on their trick-or-treating, which is far more than my son has ever done on his trick-or-treating. If -- we always would just trick-or-treat in our neighborhood, and we would just be like, “You want to go down this way? You want to go down [laughs] this way?” It's just whatever spontaneous thing we decide at the moment,…