The most luxurious experience I've ever had, I'd probably - or I'd probably think like when I was younger, any like bubble bath I had in a hotel on vacation, like the - I just felt like luxury. I mean like going to Disney and taking a bath in one of the hotels, like - Well, it had to be a bubble bath, but taking one of those baths just felt not relaxing, but just like I felt free, 'cause like when I was younger I could do whatever I want, and I would like make myself look like Santa out of bubbles, and I just thought like I was at Disney taking a bubble bath. I mean, it felt like luxury.
"Have you ever been in a food coma, and what was the occasion? And what did you eat too much of?" I have probably been in many food comas. I can't remember all of them. One time that really stuck out to me was the night before my freshman year of high school, and I was just hanging out with some friends and I tried one of those Bang energy drinks for the first time, and it gave me a lot of energy that's for sure, and then I ended up going home and we had pizza, but it was pizza with a ton of banana peppers on it, and pizza with a ton of banana peppers combined with a Bang energy drink earlier was not a good combo at all. Ten out of ten, would not recommend. And I ended up staying up until like two A.M. which was a very rough time for my first day of school the next day. That was very rough.
Oh, yeah, another fun thing that happened at my school. We have this thing called Olympics, which is basically like grades versus grades or a chance for seniors to like vent their stress and beat up other little children. I'm in the junior class. We got second place, you know, as expected. One thing that was pretty cool is that I was like the main - I was sort of like the leader, kind of, and it's kind of arrogant to say that, but it's in truth really a lot of people were asking me how they should paint something or how they should draw whatever, and so basically we had to design banners. And I'm - I'd say I'm like Fine Art. It's like I just started taking it this year as an official class, before it was more of a hobby. But, you know, I got to painting and it looked really cool, like our banner and stuff. Yeah. So I was happy with the design. There is some like little minor things that I wish I had a little more control over 'cause I didn't, like, like it that much. But it's a team activity. So it's not like I can get everything I want, especially since a lot of people were working on not just me, and it's not like we're all gonna like the same thing, you know? So I think that's really good for what we came up with, and we beat the seniors in the art part. So that's really funny.
And today I wanted to talk about a new word that I learned today. It's - I was listening to a podcast titled, "How To Be Impeccable With Your Words," and it was kind of discussing mental health and how your words play a role in your mental health and the host used a term called toxic positivity and she stated that that's when you put on this facade that everything is great and fine. However, it's really, um, it's really not and how that can be really exhausting and degrading to like your - your own self if you aren't able to own your own words, and I think that is a really interesting term. I feel like I am pretty socially aware and like personally aware of my own feelings and how to express them and who I can express my feelings with but I also noticed that a lot of times like especially when talking about grad school I tend to put on this facade like, “Everything's great. I love it. I am just enjoying and soaking up every moment of being in grad school.” When in reality, I'm burnt out and stressed and disappointed and sleep deprived and isolated and... and I want to say that I'm thriving and having a great time because I have this support of family and friends who are cheering me on and happy for all that I've accomplished, but grad school is hard and I mean, there are... I'm sure there are other like deeper connections that people can make to the term toxic positivity, but 'cause it for sure can apply to like mental health and identifying when you need help and things like that, but I think it also is just a good word to describe a phenomenon that people use all the time.