Something that makes me feel fierce is the clothing I wear. I have a few different styles of clothing that I wear. Some are really girly and it makes me feel fierce because, like I dunno, just looking extra fancy. That most women, especially in the UP, don't really dress, like, very girly at all. But the other thing is also dressing more guyish, I would say. So we're talking about, like, jeans and I have a few different plaids. And I wear a fedora unironically with, like, heart sunglasses or circular sunglasses. I like to wear goofy charm necklaces. Like, we have - me and my two dude friends who I used to live with, we have - we went to Walmart, we do this sometimes, we'd buy like “Best Friend Forever” jewelry, like, for kids and we'll wear those around and stuff. But I like to dress like that because it's incredibly unusual and it throws people off, and it makes people stop and think for a second. Like, if you dress a certain way people judge you for it and they have their preconceived ideas of what a person who dresses like that is gonna be like. But when you start mixing stuff up, like the freaking the kids’ jewelry with, like, fedora plus plaid and weird shaped sunglasses. I have wooden sandals I wear, and that kind of stops people and they’re like, “Well, what kind of person wears all that? 'cause I don't know anybody else who dresses like that.” I don't personally and most other people don't either. I also have incredibly long hair so it's like, I feel like it makes people not as dismissive of me as they would otherwise be. And I've also heard from a co-worker that it's sort of intimidating because they don't - like I said, you - “What kind of person dresses like that?” You don't really know if you don't have experience and heck, the next person who dresses like that that comes along is probably gonna be really different from me. So it makes me feel fierce because people don't, you know, they don't just dismiss you or, you know, assume you're gonna act or speak a certain way. They're just kind of like, “Alright, who is this?" So, yeah. And like I said, it's - like my coworker said, it's, like, kind of intimidating.…

Now that my season is done, what I've been doing this week is trying to plan what my summer looks like, and as a coach, I want to - or I guess, as someone who loves lacrosse, I want to stay involved with lacrosse, and the most readily available option that is for me is to be a coach. And as a goalie coach, I'm - that’s a somewhat rare thing to have just because the sport of lacrosse, you know, doesn't always have a lot of goalies anyway, because in a field - in a team of 10, only one of them will be a goalie. So we're just, by nature, we're a smaller fraction. And then, let alone people who are willing to put the time and the energy and the effort into coaching that position, it's a very different skill, but I've gotten - I've gotten the opportunity to work with a couple of goalies the past couple of years and it's kinda continued - that's kinda continued to grow for me. Every year, I feel like I'm getting more and more people reaching out or I'm getting more and more recommendations. For example, my dad, who coaches at another high school in the area, he's like, "You need to work with my goalies because they need it." It’s like, “Okay.” Don't get me wrong, I am happy to continue doing that and make some - make a little extra cash in the summer and do something that I love, but damn, summer vacation from teaching is turning into the season of coaching. Of my own volition, though. I guess I have - I absolutely have the opportunity to say, “No, I don't want to do that.” But I am purposely picking up as many opportunities as I can.

When I was a kid, I don't know why we - our neighborhood kids got into this, but we would dare each other to drink something. And we'd go in the kitchen, and we'd make something. At first, it was like concoctions like lemonade with grape Kool-Aid in it. Yummy concoctions, and somewhere along the line, it turned into gross concoctions. I remember calling it quits at raw eggs and cayenne pepper. I wouldn't drink it. I don't know how we started it. "I dare you to drink whatever I fix.” And by golly, people were drinking it until -even when it got crazy, some of the big boys were drinking it, but not me. I wouldn't... wouldn't go there.