I want to talk today about unexpected tears. So this virus has brought my emotions, more to the surface, I guess you’d call it. And I wanna talk about two times that I’ve had unexpected tears. The first time was last week Saturday, Halloween. My husband and I in fear of the virus, had sheltered ourselves inside our darkened house, with the doors locked, window shades pulled. We were not gonna hand out candy. Now this is kind of a big deal.
We are both teachers, well, retired teachers now. My husband especially has been known for handing out big candy bars to his students, former students. Halloween’s a big time. But this year, we’re going to hide in our darkened house, not celebrate.
So we sat there in the darkened house and around 6:45 the doorbell rings. Don’t answer it. It rings again. Don’t answer it, don’t answer it. Stops ringing, we peek out the window and walking away is one of his former students. I felt so badly. Then about a half an hour later. Same thing. Doorbell goes. Ignore it, ignore it, doorbell goes again.
Finally I can’t stand it, I put a mask on, I go to the door and there’s about ten kids all unmasked with a chaperone, no mask, saying “it’s Mr.****[my husband]**** here?” “Sure. I’ll go get him.” So I get my husband. He puts a mask on. Fortunately, I bought a bag of snack size M&Ms, for our granddaughter, and also thinking this kind of thing might happen, I’d better be prepared. So we did have something to give those ten kids sitting there. But as he’s interacting with them from a distance handing out the little packs with his mask on.
I just kind of dissolved into tears thinking, what a loss. This has been such a big deal and the longing for connection with people, and the wanting to be a good neighbor and enjoy this party time, just couldn’t do it. Felt so bad.