Do you pour the milk before the cereal or the cereal before the milk? Definitely the cereal before the milk. I accidentally did the milk before the cereal this one-time. I completely freaked out. Like I looked at my milk and my cereal bowl. And I’m like, what has gotten into me? What’s wrong with me? You know, because usually I get into routine, and that time I believe I actually spilled because for me, it’s impossible to do the milk before the cereal without spilling it and making it look goofy. I’m just telling you. Definitely, yeah.
Do you want to tell me about your push-ups?Oh yeah. One day, I did one hundred and five push-ups.That’s a lot of push-ups. Why are you doing so many pushups?Because I wanna get B U F F.Why?Because I wanna be strong. Yeah, I wanna be strong.Okay. So how many push-ups are you gonna do today?1 1 0. Which is one hundred and ten.What’s gonna be your highest number?Um. Five hundred. That’s not gonna be for awhile.
When I was little, I was such a Dora kid – I loved Dora, I had a Dora hat, a Dora backpack, Dora shoes. I even had Dora – like a Dora plate, and I would eat my food on the Dora plate. And I remember watching this one episode of Dora where they went to this place called “Coney Island,” and it was this big old ice cream land where there was ice cream everywhere, and I thought that was a real place. So I kept asking my dad, “Can we go to Coney Island. Can we go to Coney Island?” And he finally said yes. And when he took me there, it was this big amusement park. And I was so confused. I’m like, “Where’s the ice cream? This is not Coney Island.” He’s like, “No, this is Coney Island.” And he showed me the sign and it said “Coney Island.” So, I’m like, “Mm, whatever.” And like, I went on this, I went on these rides. There’s this one ride where you sit on it and the seat would go up and down and, like, spin you around, it made me so dizzy. And when I got off it, I was so dizzy, I was about to fall. And after we did it, there was like this game we could play, whack-a-mole. So I played whack-a-mole for the first time. It was so hard because the moles would come out and you would have to hit them but like, they’ll go back down so quickly. I tried to win as – I tried to like get as many, like, hit as many moles as I could, because I really wanted to win this prize, which it was like this big soda plushie. I really wanted to get it. I kept asking my dad, “Can I try again? Can I try again?” Until he told me to “Stop, that’s enough.” It was so funny because I told my siblings and my mom and dad about how I thought, when I was little, I thought Coney Island was like, a whole ice cream land, but it was actually this big amusement park back in New York. And they started laughing. They were like, “Wow, you were such a Dora fan back then you really thought Coney Island was a real place?” And, like, I’m embarrassed about it, but it…
I don’t know that I ever cried tears of joy. When I saw the movie, Inside Out, I cried at the end not because I was sad, exactly. But I was just overwhelmed because I felt seen in a way that I don’t normally feel seen, and I had some mental health problems going on, like flare-ups at that time. So it was a very emotional time for me overall. So feeling seen was very — It was just a very positive experience and a very positive feeling.
Dear diary, this is just a reminder that you don’t need as many things as you think you do. I’ve learned this from moving into a home, furnishing a whole home – almost, except for a couch – and then, four months, moving out. The amount of stuff – I thought I was good, I thought I was, like, more of a minimalist, but I’ve learned from repacking my stuff that I brought that I have more than I need. And so let this be a reminder that you actually don’t need as much as you think, and if you buy new, you’re never going to get back what you think, because selling a lot of my stuff on Facebook Marketplace has been really hard. So next time, go on Facebook Marketplace, and try to find stuff, instead of buying more of the new stuff, because you won’t get the money back if you sell it.
I wanted to give a shout-out to the diarists who just ran their second half marathon in Chicago. I always have the utmost respect for anyone who’s able to lock down and commit themselves to being able to run 13.1 miles. That is amazing. There’s so many athletic things I’m proud of, particularly in basketball. But sometimes when I hear about what people are doing in distance sports, it makes me feel so mortal and it puts all my stuff I’ve done in perspective. Here I am, I’ve really — I’ve run my heart out before for like 90 seconds, and then I like having a break and then you want me to run really, really, really, really hard again for another 90 seconds, okay, but then give me another break please. That’s basketball in a nutshell. So for people, the Chicago half marathon, props to that person. You’ll never hear this, but just hopefully I can put my respect out there in the world and somehow — I don’t really believe in this as a thing, but hopefully they can absorb my kudos spiritually somewhere somehow.