I also remember my first time shaving my chest, which was a really big moment. It's a too much information thing, I think, but one of my high school teammates used to call me Patch Adams, be- based upon like a movie starring Robin Williams called Patch Adams, because I had like this puff of chest hair in between my pectorals at the time. And, I don't know. I think what happened was after high school, I did put on some weight that first year out. I had a lot of misconceptions about health at the time. But then I wanted to lose it all, by working pretty hard, getting back into basketball, etc. And I wanted to be able to see the difference in my body. So I figured to get rid of the chest hair would allow me to see my body transform, and I just kind of stuck with it. I use a razor. One time I Naired it. On July 3rd, 19- oh, sorry, 2003. I Naired my chest the day before the Fourth of July, because I was curious about what Nair was and I saw it in my friend's cabinet. I burnt my chest, chemical burns I believe, and I spent most of the Fourth of July just laying in bed, face up, because my chest was so red and irritated. I left the Nair on for way longer than I should have, because I just didn't think it was going to work, was my reasoning. So it was like, I want to give it the best shot possible to work, so I'll just -- if it tells me to keep it on for five minutes, I'll keep it on for twice that, you know, just to make sure. As it turns out that was a critical mistake.

I loved my, my fifth grade teacher. She was by far my favorite. She was really -- she made everything fun and even subjects that I wasn't really interested in before entering into fifth grade, she somehow made them okay, and I really -- I really enjoyed being in her class and, and she just was -- she had a very good way with students -- very unique teacher. We had an iguana in our classroom, which not a lot of teachers have iguana in their classroom, I don't think. Probably nowadays, you maybe can't even have an iguana in your classroom, I don't know. And I wish now that I knew, where did she get this iguana? How did she have it? Like where did it come from it? I might have known then or I might not have even thought to ask then where Iggy came from, but he was, he was kind of neat. We had some other animals too, but he was the one that was sort of the most unique. He was big as well. He was, he was quite -- quite a large iguana and he had a big cage that took up a good chunk of -- good chunk of the room. Like it was, it was -- again, I think back on it and, and it was interesting. And where was he during the summer? Did she have him at her house? Probably, I don't know. So I've seen her a couple of times in, in adulthood, but it's been a long time, it's been a very long time since I've seen her but I would, I would like to sit and maybe chat with her for a little while and reminisce about fifth grade and, yeah, she really was, she really was a great teacher.

So, I bought a Saturn ION in 2003. And I went to pick it up, and my father, who was retired and loved getting new cars, was bored, and I said, "Would you like to come to the dealer and pick up my new car with me?" "Oh, I would love to," he said, "That would be fun." So I picked up my dad and we went, 'cause I didn't think I'd be there very long, and we went to turn in my car and get my new one. And this time, the gal that was our salesman says, "Oh, we have a new thing." She says, "I won't be handling the complete transaction. You'll be going to the transaction manager, and he will take care of your paperwork and all the rest of it." I said, "Okay." So, my dad looked around the showroom for a while, he was just looking at all the different new cars and everything, which is part of the reason he went. And then he went outside and he was just kind of wandering around out in the new car lot, another reason he went. And then he came in and he came into the office where I was, and just sat down in another chair that was there. And I introduced him to the person I was dealing with, who then said to my father, "Oh, it's so nice that you could come and make sure your daughter got everything right." And my dad looked at me like, "You're going to explode. And I'm going to let you." And I said, "No, I didn't need my dad for that." I said, "I brought him along 'cause he likes new cars, and I thought he'd enjoy being here, and he's retired, so he came along just to look at the cars." And the guy said, "Oh yes, but you needed your father to help you decide if this was the right car to purchase." And I said, "No." I said, "He doesn't have anything to do with that." I said, "In fact, my mother doesn't even let him come along with her when she's buying a car because he has picked out too many cars for her that she didn't like to drive." And my dad kind of giggled, not giggled, but kind of laughed and chuckled under his breath like, "Yeah, I'm not…

Note: There is language that is excluded in the transcript but not excluded in the audio. Tell us about a tryout or audition that didn’t go as expected. I never tried out for anything, or auditioned for anything, but when I was in high school, I was a senior, we -- I was in the choir, and we had an all-night -- it was a -- to build our resources. What is that called? And you get donations, I can't remember what it's called. But, a friend of mine -- you could inquire to have your friends sing on stage. And this guy must have saved his dollars for weeks, because he must have had me on that stage singing "I'm a Little Teapot" seven times that night. And it was a five dollar shot to get your friend up on the stage. So, he spent a lotta money to get me up there and he would always request me to sing, "I'm a little teapot, short and stout. Here is my handle, here is my spout." And the choir director wouldn't let me do it after I was done singing, "I'm a f***ing teapot, short and stout. Here is my f***ing handle, here is my f***ing spout." [laughs] I was done with it.

Things I'm grateful for this week? Uh, that it's almost over. It's been a roller coaster. I guess, in the mix of talking about gratefulness, I'll also be talking about the challenges because they all kinda weave in and out. At the start of the weekend, two very good friends of ours, um, they had their baby and that's exciting. So we were watching their dog, and they just came home today and they want us to come over and meet the baby. They're more, like -- they were my husband's friends first, and so we've become good friends. I have a complicated relationship in my head, I think. I think, in general, we all get along, but it's been a little bit of a struggle because life for them is very different than it is for us. And so on the challenging front, on Monday, I had another checkup at my OBGYN to see if my fertility medicine was working as it was supposed to. And it was not very clear. And so, my husband and I are in a limbo. I don't know how many months we'll try this before they put us at the next step, which would probably be IUI, I think. It's just very consuming of the brain. And then, you go meet your friend's baby, and it's not your friend's fault that getting pregnant was a walk in the park. And you wanna hold it in because that's just a really crummy way to be, right? But, it's also just really hard right now to celebrate everyone else's successes when your body just won't do it. And it's me, I'm the problem, not my husband. So, lot of feelings. Um, but we're gonna go because we do want to meet the baby and we're gonna be -- we're literally their closest physical friends and then like, we are there for one another a lot, so it just seems like we're gonna be pretty involved in this kid's life. Should probably meet him. And I would never want them to have an inkling that I'm struggling with something right now, because I want them to just be living in this moment of joy. So. My husband’s very sweet. He knows I’m struggling, so I’m grateful for him. But he also knows like, I just wanna pack it away for a little bit tonight, and just…

A long time ago, like in the late nineties, I used to work at the Subaru factory that's in Indiana. The one that builds all of the Outbacks, and now builds the Ascent. That one. And I worked in the IT department. I was in the mainframe computer room at that time. I forget what brought this on, but I was angry, and I stormed into the computer room, and then my supervisor stormed in after me and we started having an argument. And she accused me of being negative and alw- -- only ever hearing the bad stuff. And I said, "Well that's -- well, if you ever said anything good, then I'd notice it." And she said, "Oh, yeah? Well, I do!" And I said "Oh yeah? Well, give me an example."  And she says, "Well, yeah, I complimented you on this thing, a week ago." And I'm like, "Okay, that's one." And she said, "Well, and then I complimented you on this other thing, said you did a good job on Tuesday.” “That's two." And she said, "And just yesterday, I said you did a good job on this third thing." I said, "Well, that's three. Damn it. You're right." She’s like, "Well no, don't just tell me I'm right, I don't want to hear that." I’m like, "No, you gave me three examples. You're right. You do tell me good things and compliment me." And since that day, in like 1997 or 8, I try to remember to listen when I get actual good feedback on something. Took coming down to a simple "One, two, three, nope, you're right" situation. Which in retrospect is funny, but at the time was really stressful.