Things I’m grateful for this week? Uh, that it’s almost over. It’s been a roller coaster. I guess, in the mix of talking about gratefulness, I’ll also be talking about the challenges because they all kinda weave in and out. At the start of the weekend, two very good friends of ours, um, they had their baby and that’s exciting. So we were watching their dog, and they just came home today and they want us to come over and meet the baby. They’re more, like — they were my husband’s friends first, and so we’ve become good friends. I have a complicated relationship in my head, I think. I think, in general, we all get along, but it’s been a little bit of a struggle because life for them is very different than it is for us.
And so on the challenging front, on Monday, I had another checkup at my OBGYN to see if my fertility medicine was working as it was supposed to. And it was not very clear. And so, my husband and I are in a limbo. I don’t know how many months we’ll try this before they put us at the next step, which would probably be IUI, I think. It’s just very consuming of the brain. And then, you go meet your friend’s baby, and it’s not your friend’s fault that getting pregnant was a walk in the park. And you wanna hold it in because that’s just a really crummy way to be, right? But, it’s also just really hard right now to celebrate everyone else’s successes when your body just won’t do it. And it’s me, I’m the problem, not my husband. So, lot of feelings.
Um, but we’re gonna go because we do want to meet the baby and we’re gonna be — we’re literally their closest physical friends and then like, we are there for one another a lot, so it just seems like we’re gonna be pretty involved in this kid’s life. Should probably meet him. And I would never want them to have an inkling that I’m struggling with something right now, because I want them to just be living in this moment of joy. So. My husband’s very sweet. He knows I’m struggling, so I’m grateful for him. But he also knows like, I just wanna pack it away for a little bit tonight, and just hold a baby, and just chill. So that’ll be good.