“I’m not really sure why I was so embarrassed by it…”

I don't feel like I've been embarrassed too often in my life, but I have kind of a vague memory of going to—I used to take swim lessons at the Y. And one day my grandma took me. And I—which she, she didn't very often do, maybe that was the only time that she did, in fact. And I think there was some sort of a mix-up on what time we were supposed to be there, but I was either so young that I wasn't—that I didn't know to look for that or I wasn't paying attention or I don't know what. But, so I went into the locker room and my, you know, my grandma was in the locker room with me and I, you know, got my suit on. And she sent me out into the—you have to shower, you have to rinse off. And then I walked out into the pool area and realized that it was not time for my class. Like, I looked around for anybody that looked familiar, or my teacher, or whatever, you know, whoever I knew was supposed to be there and they weren't there. And for some reason, I was so embarrassed by that, that I was there at the wrong time and I'd walked out and, you know, some people were in the pool. And I—probably, maybe some were paying attention to the fact that I was walking out then, but people walked in and out all the time, so I'm not really sure why I was so embarrassed by it. But I remember being really embarrassed. And so embarrassed, in fact, that I, like, I turned around and I went back into the locker room and I started to cry. And my grandma is not one who's real good with emotions. She doesn't really, she doesn't really show emotions herself and doesn't appreciate it in other people when they show their emotions. So she was not real happy with the fact that I was in there crying. Like, she basically thought that I should, you know, buck up and figure out what was going on. And I, and I can't remember what the situation was like, maybe we were just a little bit early or—I don't know. I can't remember. But I do have that, that memory. And again, I'm not really sure why I was embarrassed, like, it…

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Janice Peng

"I am really excited to look back on these in a few years and see what my mind was going through the moment, I suppose." I am a person who has very weird dreams. Although I guess by definition, dreams are pretty weird already. Like, once I dreamed that a giant pigeon was chasing my tour group through the ruins of Ancient Rome. And the main reason we were concerned about the giant pigeon chasing us was because we were afraid it would poop on our heads. So that was an exciting dream. I'm happy to inform you that I eventually did escape the pigeon. And another time, oh! Another time, I was an alchemist peering through a telescope - no not a telescope - a scope that lets you see far, but not like into space - at a fascinating phenomenon of alchemy that I could see happening in like the ocean below the cliff that I was on. And this alchemy transformation was a bubble amongst the waves and this little boy - and the bubble was turning into a boy, and the boy was turning into a bubble. And I was just absolutely fascinated by this. And this is kind of embarrassing but when I was in middle school, I used to dream a lot about anime characters. Looking through my dream journal, I was just so surprised at how frequently in my dreams this or that anime character would appear and just do completely random things. I mean, I'm in college now and I guess it hasn't changed because sometimes I still dream about novel characters. I have been getting more into journaling my dreams recently. I very first started journaling about my dreams in elementary school, but I didn't really do it that frequently. I would maybe do, you know, one dream journal entry every few months or something like that. And I didn't remember my dreams that often, although I think I remember them more often than most people do. But recently, I've been basically journaling about my dreams every day, or at least trying to. And it's really interesting to see all the different variety of things that my brain comes up with like, day-to-day. I am really excited to look back on these in a few years and see what my mind was going through the moment, I suppose.

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Lena Abed

"I'm just really grateful to be in a new place..." Hello, my name is Lena and I'm going to be answering the question "What are you grateful for this week?" Because this is my third day in Michigan, and I guess I'm just really grateful to be in a new place because I'm from California and growing up, I didn't really travel very much, but once I got accepted into college, like new opportunities to travel began to arise and this is one of them because I'm doing an internship here with MI Diaries and I'm super excited about it. But yeah, Michigan … my first impressions were that, like, there hasn't really seemed like there's a whole lot to do here - at least, thus far. And this is someone coming from a college in, like, Los Angeles County. So obviously there's a lot of, like, hustle and bustle there. But I really do love, like, the greenery here. It's quite beautiful. And just being outside in nature is really nice and very refreshing and it's been nice meeting new people here. I'm already starting to make friends and form relationships, that's really nice. And also I'm very grateful for my parents for supporting me in coming here and taking me to the airport, like, really late at night - I think it was like 10 PM or something - and taking on a lot of the stress, so I wasn't as stressed. So, I guess, those are a few things that I'm grateful for.

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Paul Ganago

Note: There is language that is excluded in the transcript but not excluded in the audio. "And then he said "Best two out of three?"" This is a story about Uno. I and my friends, we used to play Uno a lot on the computer, and we always like used it to settle arguments and settle like debates if we were like too tired to actually debate something. And the running joke in our friend group was that I never win. I every -- every single time that I got close, someone just 'plus foured' me and then I had to draw and then I had to keep drawing and then I had thirty cards and everyone else had four. And then I would lose catastrophically or I would just get to thirty cards and just sit there right at the beginning the game. Or like some other random b******* would happen, and I would just be there like third or fourth place out of the four. And like we play with the rule where you need to draw until you match the color or number and we played with like stacking and jumping in, so that should have helped but it never really did and like every single time that I had an argument someone - with a friend they were like "Yo, let's settle this with Uno!" and they'd have this big ass grin on their face and I'm like, "Okay cool. Yeah. Sure. Sure, buddy. Let's let's see how many - how many dozen cards you have less than me when we - when we end." And like every single time that I played I couldn't win at god d*** Uno, which it's not even a skill based game, it's just luck and I just couldn't win. And like one time - one time one of my friends was like trying to decide where to - this is something stupid. I think it was where we should go eat and it was debating between one my favorite restaurants and just the like - just one down the street because it was easier to get to. And this friend he wanted to go to the f****** local Arby's and like I didn't want to because I had been eating Arby's for the past like three days. And we played a game. It was actually close. I got down…

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Sam Scroggins

"...a good line to describe sort of my perspective, which is that the places that you go shape who you are and the way that you see the world." So two years ago I was in my senior year of high school and it was I think around January-ish that everybody in the senior class got an email saying, "We're going to do senior quotes for the yearbook. If you want to do a senior quote, you can send us-" I think it was -- you had to give two dollars to the English teacher or something who was in charge of running the yearbook- "and then you can pick a quote, and we'll put it in the yearbook." And so I was super excited because I have wanted to do a senior quote since I was in -- started high school. But I realized I hadn't really thought about what I wanted my quote to be and so I thought, "I want to do something from a poem," because I really like poetry. And I eventually managed to get it down to two options- so this is after I had paid the two dollars and everything- and one of them was from a Percy Bysshe Shelley poem called Ozymandias. And the line is, "Look on my works, ye Mighty, and Despair!" and I thought you know, that would be kind of funny to do because within the poem it's a line that's the inscription on a statue that has been destroyed by time, and so, you know, it's sort of about how nothing, you know, lasts forever, even great power is gone, and so I thought it'd be kind of, like, funny and ironic because it's like- it's this super high and mighty line about something that is no longer high and mighty, but eventually I decided, you know, maybe that could be taken the wrong way. And so I decided to go with a line from a Sylvia Plath poem and the line is, I think, "And what if the sky here is no different/ And it is my eyes that have sharpened themselves?" And so the reason that I chose that was because I thought, you know, I, I've moved around in my life and I've learned to call different places home. And so, you know, I thought that it was sort of a good line to…

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Lynsey Akin

"My heart was beating outta my throat and I, like, looked behind me." Have you ever had a strange or paranormal experience and what happened? And as embarrassed as I am to say, I think that yes, during middle school, I had one of these strange or paranormal experiences. Um, but in middle school, I, uh, was living -- like my bedroom was in the basement and our basement was set up in this u-shape. Um, so the middle of the U was where the stairs would be coming from the main level down to the basement and then on either side of like the long legs of the U was my bedroom and then my brother's bedroom. So like we shared a wall but you would have to walk all the way around the U for me to get to my brother's bedroom. And it was a fairly long basement, cause it was a ranch style house and so the basement, um, was really long and kind of narrow. And my mom had set up these mirrors down there to make it seem even, like, longer, I guess, I dunno. But they would be on either side of the entrance to the stairs such that if you like stood in front of the mirror, you could see all the way down the leg and then back into whichever bedroom, either mine or my brothers. And they were really nice mirror with like good lighting above it. And so that's usually where I would do my hair in the morning. And so I would be sitting in front of the mirror braiding my hair like Katniss Everdeen, like an -- into a side ponytail kinda situation. Um, and then I could see all the way behind me to my bedroom. And then there were two other doorways on my side of the basement that my brother didn't have. There was a door to a bathroom and right across the door was it -- er, yeah, right across from the bathroom, there was a door to under the stairs. And we -- when we moved in had never been able to get into that room. And we just couldn't get it open and it didn't really seem important to open it, so we never really tried. Um, but during the mornings when I was braiding my hair, I would sit in…

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“I decided this time, I would just go stand as close as I can to him without introducing myself…”

I remember going to meet my - meet my dad at a high school basketball game. I picked up my younger brother, who was probably a freshman in high school, and we were gonna go meet my dad and, you know, watch my other younger brother's basketball game. And when we got there, this was the sort of high school gym that has a track, like a running track around the outside, so the court's kind of down a little bit. And my Dad loved to stand along the track. There was a railing. And he loved watching the games leaning on that railing, looking down at the court. And so when we got there, paid for my ticket, paid for my brother's ticket, and spotted my dad. And for some reason - again, I think I was probably, like, 24. This was probably right around the same time as the Subway situation. Spotted my dad and for whatever reason, you know, there's two ways you can approach this. He's watching the game so you can be like, "Hey Dad!" You know distract him. But I decided this time, I would just go stand as close as I can to him without introducing myself and let him notice me, and then I'll be like, you know, my stupid way of saying "Hello!" So that's what I did. I walked right up to him. And got uncomfortably close to my dad. And then he didn't respond, and so I wanted to pretend I was just watching the game too. So I nudged a little bit closer without breaking, you know, my eye line with the court. And finally, he looked toward me, and I looked back toward him. And that's when I realized, it was not my dad. It was a stranger. And so then we're faced with this. The reality which is a 24 year old man just nuzzling up to a random stranger at a high school basketball game. And I looked down about 20, 25 feet and I could see my younger brother standing next to my real dad. And they're both looking at me just like, "What are you doing?" And then the other guy's looking at me like, "What's going on here pal?" And I couldn't come up with an explanation on the spot because I was so embarrassed and I remember just kind of like,…

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“He was on a trip and he was describing the weather and it didn’t sound right.”

I was in a really bad relationship many years ago and always kinda had that gut feeling but never could prove it. And then it finally came to blows and it was because I paid attention to - he was on a trip and he was describing the weather and it didn't sound right. He was in another country. And I Googled it and was able to quickly discern that he was not where he said he was, and he turned off all location services. He made it nearly impossible to figure out where he was, but he made an error. He logged into his email from my computer and I didn't know it at the time, but as soon as I fired up my computer to figure out where the heck he might be. So, like that one little clue him talking about how he was really nervous about his flight not taking off due to snow, and me thinking "There is no snow Prague right now." And realizing that's not where he was. And so I was able to pinpoint where he was. Which then led to figuring out why he was there, which was not for good reasons, and I avoided a dead end relationship that was just gonna suck me dry financially, emotionally, and just leave me in a really bad spot. And so I guess you could count that, beyond your typical like avoiding horrible car accidents.

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“It’s really fulfilling to be able to connect with them and get on their level…”

I've mentioned in the past, I'm a registered behavior tech and last Tuesday when I came to see a kid who is basically my favorite. I hate to say it, I have a favorite. But when I first started seeing him, he was really hesitant and guarded, I've mentioned him before, and he warmed up to me pretty quickly within a few sessions. And the other day I came, and his mom said that whenever I pulled up, he looked out the window and saw the car and then ran to the door and started jumping up and down, which is really cool. Makes me feel really good that he is excited to see me, especially because - just, you know, the specialties and the unique needs that these children have, like, just, it's really fulfilling to be able to connect with them and get on their level. Like I said, they're very unique and it takes a little bit to kinda, like, get on their wavelength. But, for the kids who I have, like, been able to get in that zone with, it's been really fun and really rewarding to see them learn and grow over time, even within a session. And just to be able to make that space for them and to be able to make a difference in somebody li- - somebody's life is so cool to me. I came from marketing, which I'm sure I've mentioned too, and you know, I wasn't doing this kinda work. Like, I had a little bit of fulfillment being able to, like, create inclusive storytelling and copy and things like that. But my bosses ultimately didn't care. They didn't understand the value of it and I didn't want to do it anymore for someone who couldn't register how emotionally invested I was in this process of making them money and, you know, I'm making people money now, but obviously the service is just so much more rewarding than selling a product. Yeah.

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“I put some pretzels in a cup and said, ‘What are the pretzels doing in my tea?'”

I come from a separated family. I know how that jazz goes and - but some of the people my ex surrounds himself are especially drawn to drama. And keep in mind, me and my ex are still on talking terms. Maybe too much talking as I said before, but we're managing it and above all we're - we are cordial. And these girls that I've always really felt that they're just kinda mean. Well, they just had a hoot and a half, when my ex and I called things quits and I broke up with him. That makes me the villain, such is life. But there's this social media app called BeReal and I'm on there and I see that one of them had posted an image of them looking shocked and saying "'Looking at the - looking at the, um - looking at this app just to see the tea." And a bunch of her friends comment like "Girl. I was just about to say that," blah blah blah. And I'm like "What's going on? What's the drama?" And I talked to my ex that night and he said it was actually us they were talking about. I said, "Oh, do enlighten me," and he said, "Oh, yeah, like, because we were like talking and exchanging on the app and people could see." It was just like a fun, friendly banter. They just, like, could not get enough of that and they just loved it and wanted to be absolutely horribly mean and just kind of bitter.So I posted the next day. They call themselves - well, we'll say they call themselves the, the pretzels. I put some pretzels in a cup and said, "What are the pretzels doing in my tea?" 'cause that was how they worded it, was like 'going on here to see the tea'. So I said "What are the pretzels doing in my tea?" Silly, silly, all in good fun, with a heart. And they absolutely hated it. They were being wretched and I've heard they said some really nasty things in the group chat that I'm no longer in, and I'm just really happy to have those kinda people out of my life. They said like, "How do you subtweet someone in 2023?" They started it. I'm reacting to it. I shut it down in a way that's silly and that I'd hope…

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