After that, I had this weird thing that, I don’t know whether it was from my adrenaline and mortal, just general mortal terror being so high for so long during the cancer treatment or whether like it was a weird effect of chemo, but I, I stopped having adrenaline responses to dangerous situations for a while.
We were at a friend’s house for, I think it was for the Fourth of July, and the adults were talking. It was — there were no other kids there. It was just my kids, and it was at this point just my son, and we were all like, sitting near the pool. Like, we, we were right there. And my friend that I was stand- — sitting there talking to was like, “Oh, look at your son.” And he was like, doing the thing. You know, he was bobbing in the water, like his head going under the water, bobbing down, and then he’d bob back up and, and be trying to, to get a lungful like, you know. It, it’s so quiet when somebody is like, starting to drown. It’s so quiet. It’s, it’s not how you expect from watching the television. But, but my friend recognized it right away and I, and I saw this and I was just like, “Huh.” My, my brain had no — like, normally I am, like, borderline helicopter mother, like if something dangerous is happening, to a ridiculous extent preventive of danger coming to my children, and just nothing.
Fortunately, there were four adults to one child in the pool, and my husband — Oh, he was so cool. Like, just, just slick as ice, he just — he like, fully clothed, he, he just like — I think he maybe took a jacket off or something — why would he be wearing a jacket? It was July — So he must not — he must have just been completely fully clothed. Like, he already had his shoes and stuff off because he was just sitting there so he didn’t have boots on. And just jumped over the little fence that was around the pool and straight into the water and got my son out of the pool, and he was fine. He was not like, he was not like, drowning drowning yet, he was just in trouble. Like, a few — like, 10, 15 seconds more, he would have had a bit of a lung full of air — He coughed a little bit — er, a lung full of like, water. He got a little water down but not a lot. He was perfectly fine, but it was so weird.
It, it started to worry me that I was not having these responses ’cause when you see your child in danger, you’re supposed to have those responses. You know, you’re supposed to have that adrenaline rush that helps you, that helps you act quickly, and not having any of that was — it was a little, it was a little scary to not be scared about that stuff.